my own worst enemy

As I get older, I'm astounded at how much actually goes on inside my brain.   While I love how I always challenge myself to be a better person - to learn more, to explore new places and people as each year passes, I'd also love to be able to put my brain in a jar.   

I remember one time when I was visiting my girlfriend Kirsten in New Brunswick, we were sitting in her kitchen talking and I looked out the back window and watched Greg (her husband) mow their thousands of acres of a backyard (slight exaggeration but close).  It took him about 3 hours to mow it as they didn't have a sit-down mower.  I said to Kirst, "what do you think Greg's thinking about out there?" and she laughed at me because she knows I never shut it off.  She said, "honestly, probably nothing" and I said, "Impossible.  Your brain doesn't stop...he MUST be thinking of something even if it's the colour of the grass or how sharp the blades are".  When Greg came in the house, Kirst said, "Greg, Cheryl wants to know what you were thinking while you were mowing the lawn?".  He, of course, laughed at me because he too knows how I, shall we say, operate. He responded, "Cheryl, I'm embarassed to say you'd be so disappointed in me because I honestly wasn't thinking about a damn thing."   So, maybe it is just me.  Thank gawd I don't have a lawn.

In the last few weeks I've met a new friend who is beyond patient with me and my thought process. That person is completely challenging my thinking without knowing they're even doing it.  As a Gemini, it's easy to blame your crazy thinking on the 'good ole twins', but it gets old after awhile...even for me.  I'm glad this person came into my life, whether fleeting, temporarily or forever.  They've got me thinking about not thinking about it all.