Thursday, October 22, 2009

alone in a crowded room

I pride myself on my independence.  Probably to a fault.  But I love the strength in doing things on my own; things that most others feel they couldn't do without the support and presence of someone else at their side. My lone-state of emotional happiness has ranged from "I am woman, hear my roar!" when I fixed a toilet for the first as big as "I'm on top of the world!" after a 4-day climb to Machu Picchu.  

Basically, I get off (not in that way) on having dinner alone with a candle, a glass of wine and a book in a cozy restaurant. (Oddly, I enjoy this more when I'm traveling, but not so much here at home).  I treasure solo road-trips with my dog and my ipod.  I prefer to run alone than with a friend.  And I'll never forget the first time I went to a movie by myself - pure bliss.

That said, my evil (or perhaps, my better) gemini twin also loves parties, dinners, trips and all around good times with the people I love the most in the world - my family and amazing friends.  So no, I'm not some kind of loner hermit. 

Last night, for the second time in my life, I went to a concert by myself.  This, I can say is not nearly as much fun as all my other fav things to do alone.  But my take on life is to never stop yourself from doing the things you want because you don't have a companion, partner, friend or lover with you - whether it's travel, a movie, dinner or a concert.  I'm incredibly happy that I pushed myself to buy that ticket to see Metric at Massey Hall last night.  While it's always way more fun to dance and sing with friends, Emily rocked that stage so hard that she had me dancing with her.  Not only was I in a moment with her, but we all were.  Together.


  1. I am not commenting on your blog, rather I am commenting on the change of picture on your blog. For some reason, for me, this photo better explains your interpretation of "this too shall pass". With one quick look, I feel your aloneness, your thoughtfullness, and your strength of purpose. This, to me is a perfect example of the expression "a picture says a thousand words". I finally understand your take on your catch phrase. Love it and love you

  2. I am going to look like a complete idiot. PLease explain that you changed your profile picture, because my above comment makes no sense. believe me I am now laughing my ass off. Too funny.

  3. I, on the other hand, am commenting on the post :) I also enjoy my time alone. I actually need it. I love my wife and friends but sometimes you need to stop and go back to the core. I need to get in touch with my true self and you can't do that when you have people around. We had a discussion at lunch time the other day about going to the movies alone. I love it. In all honesty, why do you need somebody else with you? BTW, I liked the tattoo picture better :)

  4. i would never miss a concert! (unlike some! grr) and have been to many a concerts by myself (i'm assuming the other time you went was with my lone ticket :)

    and you know, as fun as singing along with friends is, i sometimes feel when you go by yourself you are able to take in so much more.